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Thursday, October 18, 2012

On a Wednesday in a concert, I watched it begin again

-You can find those sentences in Taylor's songs (Superstar, Begin Again, Enchanted)-
Took a deep breath in the mirror. He texted me to ask that I would come or not.
Walked in expecting I'd be late. And I did not get my chair and I texted to you.
About a minutes, I found a side to stand and watch you.
You came and sang. Oh, that is the sexiest voice I ever heard. I do, I do love you.
In the middle of concert you texted me about your performance. ""What's minus from me?" then I said you looked good enough, your voice is amazing and I'm the lucky girl who was invited by you.
It was your second performance, I never forget how I sent a text to you to smile then you came and sang a mellow song.
OMG! How stupid I am.
You stand in the stage and wave to me. Your eyes whispered, "have we met?" You never know how nice that is.
You smile that beautiful smile and all the girls in the front row scream your name.
I cannot take my eyes off of you. I'm no one special. I cannot sing like you used to do,
I'm just wide eyed girl who's desperately in love with you.
I've been spending the last 8 months since 22nd February, thinking all love over does is break and burn and end.
After concert, I waited you out. Then you came and said, "I want to introduce you to my parents."
That night was amazing. That night was flawless, don't you let t go.
On a Wednesday in a concert I watched it begin again. I'm wonderstruck blushing all the way home.








Wednesday, October 17, 2012

I Miss The Old Us

I miss the old us. I miss how we laugh, the time we've spent together, our late night conversations, those mornings we've done, and the memories we made for two.
I forgot how it started, what is beginning? Our summer holiday? The day when you said that I am not who I was and you adapt. It was fun, you know?
We drove to my best friend's home to say goodbye, that was 10 pm. That was cold in outside. Did you know what she asked to me?
She asked, "are you two a couple?" I said nothing but I wish we could be.
we always have split up but you come again and say "I miss you" or maybe I did too.
Everyone said that I was in love with you but I'm too afraid to say it's love or just a fling.
Remember the last day we met? I never know what is happening. I just like would not go to college if I could. But it happened. No goodbye, no hug, no kiss, just a wave. I do miss you.
Now, what am I thinking about? I'm thinking about us.
It was also cold and we spent our Saturday night, drove around the town. We told stories, laughed, argued and you did shake my hand. I miss that time.
The night before, you drove me to Ayu's house. I could not feel my fingers. Cold, that is always being a problem. You include my hand to your jacket's pocket. You never knew how nice that is.
I miss you, I miss the old us. I miss everything we've been through, before her jealousy came and ruin.
Don't leave me like this. Please say something, said that you did miss me too.
I stood here and watched you walked away from everything we had. But I swear, I mean every word I said to you.