A Guy Without A Name

Hi! I met a guy without a name but a smile.
He was sitting next to me.
He is friendly but without a name.
I do really like a view when he smokes.

Hi! It was the second time.
There is something about him I can't explain.
No words to describe.
I do really like his smile.
It's sweet but gentle.

Hi! This is me, a guy without a name.
Here is me! I can't help thinking of you, waiting for someone will call his name.
His name is worth and I will spend my whole life to know.
He is stranger but I thing I'm falling in love with him.
Can you see through my eyes?
What can you find something into it?
I do really like a view when he smokes.

Hi! A guy without a name

You're Mean

Come and sit down, we will tell about us when you went out with another girl.

7^th January, I remember when you call me and tell me you love me. We dated in the end of October but we ended. So, it’s my second foolish moment.  You call me ‘baby’ and I am so in love. Every morning you text me “good morning dear” “good morning love” and “good morning baby” Oh! You make me love you more and more every day.

My friends tell me, “What are you doing with him? He’s not good enough. He’s playboy and dates so many girls.” But I do not hear them because I love you.

Another day, it’s Sunday morning you call me and say, “You’re forever and always. I will always love you.” But in the end of conversation you say, “Can you give me 100bucks? I need money for my motorcycle. It’s urgent and I promise to return it on Monday.”

Because I love you, I give you what you want. I drive so far away from my house and you wait with your friends -maybe-

You promise and I believe. You say you love me and I love you more. It’s my foolish.

2^nd April, It’s my birthday but you do not give me a gift. You just say, “Happy birthday” and it’s enough to me. You know why I am so foolish? Because of I love you.

You changed, you never text me morning and night. You just call me when you need money and I hate it.

I call you first, I ask, “What’s happening?” You say nothing happen.

“Do you have somebody else in your heart?” then you say, “Yes.” I cry and cry like a baby and it’s hurting me in my whole heart.

And the end of our story it’s today. 12^th May. Now, I believe in my friends because they love me and understand me more than you. I text you and we break up now. 

On a Wednesday in a concert, I watched it begin again

-You can find those sentences in Taylor's songs (Superstar, Begin Again, Enchanted)-
Took a deep breath in the mirror. He texted me to ask that I would come or not.
Walked in expecting I'd be late. And I did not get my chair and I texted to you.
About a minutes, I found a side to stand and watch you.
You came and sang. Oh, that is the sexiest voice I ever heard. I do, I do love you.
In the middle of concert you texted me about your performance. ""What's minus from me?" then I said you looked good enough, your voice is amazing and I'm the lucky girl who was invited by you.
It was your second performance, I never forget how I sent a text to you to smile then you came and sang a mellow song.
OMG! How stupid I am.
You stand in the stage and wave to me. Your eyes whispered, "have we met?" You never know how nice that is.
You smile that beautiful smile and all the girls in the front row scream your name.
I cannot take my eyes off of you. I'm no one special. I cannot sing like you used to do,
I'm just wide eyed girl who's desperately in love with you.
I've been spending the last 8 months since 22nd February, thinking all love over does is break and burn and end.
After concert, I waited you out. Then you came and said, "I want to introduce you to my parents."
That night was amazing. That night was flawless, don't you let t go.
On a Wednesday in a concert I watched it begin again. I'm wonderstruck blushing all the way home.

I Miss The Old Us

I miss the old us. I miss how we laugh, the time we've spent together, our late night conversations, those mornings we've done, and the memories we made for two.
I forgot how it started, what is beginning? Our summer holiday? The day when you said that I am not who I was and you adapt. It was fun, you know?
We drove to my best friend's home to say goodbye, that was 10 pm. That was cold in outside. Did you know what she asked to me?
She asked, "are you two a couple?" I said nothing but I wish we could be.
we always have split up but you come again and say "I miss you" or maybe I did too.
Everyone said that I was in love with you but I'm too afraid to say it's love or just a fling.
Remember the last day we met? I never know what is happening. I just like would not go to college if I could. But it happened. No goodbye, no hug, no kiss, just a wave. I do miss you.
Now, what am I thinking about? I'm thinking about us.
It was also cold and we spent our Saturday night, drove around the town. We told stories, laughed, argued and you did shake my hand. I miss that time.
The night before, you drove me to Ayu's house. I could not feel my fingers. Cold, that is always being a problem. You include my hand to your jacket's pocket. You never knew how nice that is.
I miss you, I miss the old us. I miss everything we've been through, before her jealousy came and ruin.
Don't leave me like this. Please say something, said that you did miss me too.
I stood here and watched you walked away from everything we had. But I swear, I mean every word I said to you.

Rain Fall

What happened in the past stay in the past! My Mom wouldn’t like you because your tattoo and you aren’t my Mom’s type but I liked you.

We drove until the night came. I hugged you and you kissed me in my forehead. It was rain and you stood outside dancing and screamed my name. I laughed and saw you from my room’s window. My Mom came out and she was angry.

There was such Saturday night and you invite me to some place that you loved about.  It was cold and your arms around me. We walked and talked you looked into my eyes and gave me a kiss in my forehead, slowly.

You called me but it was too late at night and my Mom would wake up if she knew that we were in the phone. You called me, honey and I was blushing all that time. You said that you loved me and also I did too.

I am standing outside in the rain and waited you, remember that, flashback to the night when we sat down in the park, something that I thought never happened was just happen, you said that you loved me, would never leave me alone and I said I loved you too.  

A Grafity Maker

You were in the same class with me. You like drawing, everybody knows. You were known as the gravity’s designer. You’re cool. I wasn’t a beauty girl and I wasn’t the one popular in that school. I was who I am, just ordinary.

Every single day, the English teacher was mad at me. I never brought my dictionary and he would order me to do some suck things like standing in front of class. He asked me everything that I didn’t know, so you were helping me as a guardian angel. You gave me your dictionary but said nothing after that.

I adore you! The other day, you gave me your draw. I called it, “My mysterious man” and I wrote a poem and you were yelling at me. You said that it was no good. But I saw you were blushing all the time.

You looked at me and I was surprising you. I was enchanted whenever you saw me like that. I was wishing we had time to spend together ride your bicycle but we didn’t. I liked your footsteps and your hands in your pockets.  You were yelling at me in the morning but I liked it. I liked the way you walk, you talk and you say my name. It’s flawless, perfect.

I am wishing we would meet someday, in another day and I said that I adored you more than anything. I would kiss you in the rain. You hugged me so I could feel your smell. We would lie down in the ground and you put your arms around me.

I know the day would come out and you were here, by my side.

Story Behind A Doll

You were always around but I knew your reasons because we were friend. Your father could accompany you to the school but you chose to go to school with me by bus. But sometimes you left me alone in the morning.

Once upon a time, you gave me a book. You said, “It’s our diary. Whatever you fell, you can write on it.” And we did. I told about my love to him and you gave me a comment. I enjoyed time with you.

Until it was starting at 14^th February when I was with him, you would celebrate a Valentine day with me. You asked me, “What do you like for Valentine’s gift?” and I answered “A doll”

We were fool. You came to my house, standing outside but you didn’t knock my door. And I don’t know why you did that. Why? You were mad at me in another morning and also I didn’t know why. Why? You know I didn’t wait you in the outside my house because that night was cold, I was foolish and I am sorry about that.

Three years later, I was in another town so far away from you. We started to work it out again. I made my heart was empty. Nobody was here and you were in. I was in love with you but I didn’t know what you felt.

In September’s night I asked to you, “What’s our relationship would be called?” You said nothing. I asked again, “What’s your feeling about me?” and again you said nothing. I am mad at you.

Then you surprised me, you said, “I am in love with you. How about you?” you begged me to be your gals but I said no because we had a long distance and I couldn’t do this. I wouldn’t believe about love with a guy that I never met before. Yeah, we’re friend but it was a years ago and everybody changes.

We didn’t talk each other and I felt missing you. It was my apologies. I said to you that I loved you, I missed you and I wanted to be yours. But it was too late.

You are in relationship with a girl that I don’t know who. Now I am standing alone and waiting you for other days that we will make our first page story.

Just Friend

We were five, playing outside, climbing the trees, sitting in the cradle, eating confetti, and many things we did when we were young. I remember when you kissed me because you imitated what you saw on the movie. That was funny whenever I thought and then smile.

We were 12 when we weren’t going to spend time together. You with your new world and I did too. You played guitar and I learned to write story. You learned drum and I drew. You played piano and I climbed the mountain. I love adventure and you do it too.

I had boyfriend and you used to find a girlfriend. I never talked to you again until we are 16. I sent you a text. I said, “Hi, how are you?” and you said, “I just fine. How’s about your school?” then we were talking about everything we had and what passed away.

We love football and we have the same favorite football club. You tell me a jokes and I’m flirting you just for fun. We got our childhood time again. We’re definitely different now but we always love each other like we used to be.

Tomorrow I wanna wake up and meet up with you, friend

What Is A Reason?

You came with your thousand mistakes. Your first mistake is made me loving you, your second mistake is made our friendship ended, and the last is you made another heart broke to pieces.

But you promised to finish those mistakes and I believed. You’d give priority to me rather than anything and I mesmerized on it. Thank you so much.

Every night I was just wishing you were at my door and I would say it on the phone to you. Then you drove in the middle of night to my house, knocking my door and I’d open up. You made me most crazy and took away my pain, I finally forgot him. The day left and I felt in love. You did whatever a girls want the guys to do, spoiled me.  

You kissed me in the under night’s sky, full of stars and it was first time. You kissed me everywhere, your room, under the trees, in the park, my room, morning and night. Again and again you made me crazier because of it. You give me happiness and I wish it grown up in my whole heart.

Did you remember when we sat down in the park and saw everybody spends their time, walking, running, exercise and picnicked? We talk about our future, huh?

You knew I do not like the beach more than mountain’s coolness. I knew you do not like waiting but for me you did. We knew we love basketball and the other sports.

But why did we break up? Why are you leaving me alone? You forget me and everything we had. I never imagined we’d end like this.

August Come

I saw you from the balcony every Saturday morning.  You sat under the paper flowers. You looked busy doing your arts but you were so cool wearing white shirt then you run your fingers through your hair. You’re smart and gentle, flawless.

You have a little brother, his name’s Stephen. He is handsome like you are. You are two years older than me. You like football and play-station.

Every lunch, you queue up in front of me to get some foods. Just close enough to touch. I walked to the library just to see you during your class. I never forgot we first met in the staircase. You lent your novel to me. You weren’t much talking but that silence made my love grown really fast.

Whenever I looked into your eyes, I felt peaceful. I was safe and I loved that feelings.

Did you remember what happened in the middle of August? We walked under an umbrella and you said, “It will be always flawless between us. I would never leave you and I will be making you laugh as long as I can”

Until another August come out, second years that we were together. I would move to another town and you just said, “I couldn’t keep this love.” You didn’t want me to stay. You didn’t want me to laugh together with you. You didn’t want kiss me in the pouring rain or ride bicycle every morning and evening.

You were afraid to distance and some long-distance-relationship. You said that it didn’t work out. I love you by now and wishing you would come back to me again. 

A Cute Mickey Mouse Ring

We sat in the cradle, you gave me a cute mickey mouse-ring. We were both young when the moments happened. You weren't my type and you will not my type. I always remember when you drove your motorcycle to pick me up. You were protective like you used to be and I was safe when you were around. You're romantic but I thought that was ridiculous. You told me everything but I didn't care like I never want to know. You gave all your love but I gave you a goodbye.
I have known an important thing you have waited since we broke up is my huge apologies and now, I am here with it to say I am sorry for the things that I did to you.

Quote for Today

FAREWELL PARTY

Hi! See you again guys. I just want to post some pictures about my farewell party of High School. I am going to miss those moment that we had.

(Left to Right) Giovanna, Rina, Putri, Rice, Me and Ica

Left to Right : Me, Ica, Rina, Putri, Rice, Giovanna, Maya, Mutia

Wawan, Tanti, Me

And the last picture is mine.The moment that I will never forget. 

Good bye Senior High School, Im gonna miss you already. I wish we had our greatest future, were doing the best for life. CIAO!

JULAK ACAI DAN SUSTER MARIA

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Nama saya yg dilingkerin

Buku tersebut telah resmi launching pada hari Sabtu, 31 Maret 2012. Buku tersebut sangatlah istimewa karena editornya adalah Arif Er Rachman. Terdiri dari lebih dari 30 karya menarik dan saya yakin buku ini dapat membantu para Veteran :)

Dan ini adalah momen-momen peluncuran buku Julak Acai dan Suster Maria serta workshop menulis. hoping you enjoyed it!

Launching Julak Acai dan Suster Maria

Launching Julak Acai dan Suster Maria

Launching Julak Acai dan Suster Maria

Launching Julak Acai dan Suster Maria

Launching Julak Acai dan Suster Maria

Launching Julak Acai dan Suster Maria

Launching Julak Acai dan Suster Maria

Launching Julak Acai dan Suster Maria

Launching Julak Acai dan Suster Maria (Me)

Launching Julak Acai dan Suster Maria

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Ma'am Maria Birthday's Gift

“Happy birthday to you… Happy birthday to you… Happy birthday… Happy birthday ma’am Maria…”

I will share about special day of my beloved English teacher. 22^nd March was her birthday, and we, Giovanna, Giovanny, Putri ‘Pello’, Nisrina, Rice and I, gave surprise to her.

Ma’am Maria is the best teacher that I ever had. She is teaching anything for us, and also we are learning about life from her. She is my teacher from class 10 until class 12. She teach me, from I was nothing for English until I can understand this language. She teach her students patiently.

So what would we do to celebrate and respond her goodness? We made the cake!! 

The cake before decorated

 

It looked yummy!! This cake was made by Pello’s Mom because we didn’t make delicious cake like this one. We just decorated and the finally…..

It was not as much shatter because after Vanny brought exactly this cake been grated coconut with spices. But the taste was good, definitely :P

It was a special moment that I want to remember everyday after I leave this school. It was the one of days that we had to spend our time together. We are friend and will be friend forever, however, we will live in another town or country :D

Friends

Friends

Friends

Look at me!

Chibi Chibi !!

We are friends

It was special present that we had from our beloved teacher.

Giovanna and Ma'am Maria

Rice and Ma'am Maria

Giovanny and Ma'am Maria

Ma'am Maria and I

Nisrina and Ma'am Maria

Pello and Ma'am Maria

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA'AM!! 

Ladang Kebahagiaan

Aku menaburkan benih-benih senyum di ladang yang disiram oleh tangis setiap pagi. Pada petani-petani itu kuminta agar menjaga dan menanam bibit itu dengan baik sehingga ketika memanennya akan mendapat hasil yang baik pula. Di ladang milik sahabatku, senyum-senyum yang disiram oleh tangis itu tumbuh menjadi kebahagiaan. Katanya ada pupuk khusus yang membuatnya sedemikian rupa. Apa nama pupuk itu?

“Cari saja di toko Kehidupan” jawabnya.

Kemudian aku mengayuh sepedaku menuju toko tersebut. Roda-roda sepeda berputar diatas kerikil-kerikil tajam, kenangan-kenangan yang menggenang, dan aspal panas masa lalu. Matahari menyengat di atas kepalaku walau tak sepanas harapan nistamu, kekasih.

Perjalanan masih lumayan jauh namun kurasa aku tak sanggup lagi. Aku merasakan haus kasih sayang, tenggorokanku mulai kering. Aku dehidrasi. Aku mencoba menelan ludah dengan susah payah walau tak sesulit menelan kenyataan pahit ini.

Sebentar lagi akan kudapat hasil panen yang baik, bukannya ada pepatah mengatakan, bersakit dahulu bersenang kemudian? Saat ini aku begitu susah payah mencapai Toko Kehidupan namun setelah kudapat pupuk itu, lahanku akan menghasilkan kebahagiaan yang berlimpah ruah.

Kusandarkan sepedaku di bahu bidang pohon kokoh di seberang emperan toko. Aku berjalan begitu semangat menyeberangi jalan yang kini lengang. Toko Kehidupan ada tiga langkah dari tempatku berdiri sekarang, nampak penjaga toko yang sudah tua dengan kipas bambu di tangannya. Tidak ingin membuang waktu aku bergegas memasuki toko tersebut.

“Ada yang bisa saya bantu?” tanya penjaga toko tua itu.

“Saya mencari pupuk khusus untuk kebahagiaan, adakah?”

“Oh, cinta…”serunya.

“Apapun namanya. Adakah?”

“Cinta sudah habis. Kau bodoh sekali, kau ciptakan saja pupuk itu, minta bantuan kekasihmu”

“Kekasih? Kau tahu, kekasihku itu pembodoh yang tak mengerti kebahagiaan”

“Kekasihmu tak akan lagi menjadi pembodoh jika kau kembali dan mengajaknya menciptakan cinta”

Penjaga toko tua itu memberiku buku kecil dengan sampul kumal berwarna coklat kayu. Di sampul itu tertulis, “Resep Cinta untuk Kebahagiaan”. Setelah mendapatkan buku itu aku kembali pulang namun kali ini tidak ke ladang. Aku mengikuti saran penjaga toko Kehidupan itu, aku mengayuh sepeda ke jalan menuju sang kekasih.